Even though I’m slightly skeptical about the whole ‘New Year, New Me’ thing, the 1st of January is the perfect mark in time to evaluate the year we just left behind and make resolutions for the year ahead.
Out of all my resolutions last year I only stuck to one (drink more water) so this year I’m only making one; Live your life for the moment and not through the lens of a camera – I know, slightly crazy for a blogger. But let me explain…
As you can see from previous posts, I’ve been pretty much M.I.A from the blogging scene for most of December. After a tough couple of months I decided to take a break from the online world to piece my life back together. I’d tried to come back to my online life a few times and it just felt like a chore – something I didn’t want to do and was effort. And let me tell you, the last thing I wanted to feel like was that this place that I’ve worked so hard to create, was nothing but a chore.
It was all prompted by one of my Directors at work who commented one day that I looked ‘a little flat’ and that it wasn’t the Charlotte he knew. He reminded me that happy people attract happy people (or something like that) and I made the decision there and then that it was time for life to go on – they usually say it’s an epiphany moment don’t they? My break up was hard and there were times that I felt like I was suffocating but I wasn’t dead. I’d made it through it in one piece and as many people had said to me, I was much better off for it. I needed to take some time for myself, to learn what it’s like to live alone, be single, binge watch my favourite shows on Netflix, kick my own ass at the gym, have the time of my life with friends, get to know the people I work with and most importantly have fun and live each moment to the fullest. Life is for living, and once you’re done with the mourning process it’s time to pick yourself back up and carry on your journey. Because if it didn’t last it probably wasn’t so great anyway.
As a blogger, I’m the first person to whip my camera out to capture a moment on film. But it occurred to me that while I was reaching for a camera and watching something through a little screen, I was missing the real experience. I was that annoying person who filmed through gig and concerts but the truth is, I don’t think I’ve ever watch any of those recordings back and they’re just taking up valuable space on my phone. Don’t worry, I’ll still be sharing my experiences through my blog and YouTube but I’m going to try and take more moments for myself before I whip out the camera. Who knows how I’ll manage it but I’m going to give it a go.
Thank you to the lovely readers who have stuck by me through my blogging break but I can honestly say I’m happy to be back and I know 2015 is going to be an amazing adventure 🙂
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